Just do it! is a book about Conductive Education written by conductors who graduated at the National Institute of Conductive Education between the years 2000-2008. 21 graduates contributed to the book, each describing their experiences as a newly qualified conductor. The book is edited by Andrew Sutton and Gillian Maguire and published by Conductive Education Press.
I personally contributed to the book, providing a chapter on my experiences of working here in Brazil. Titled Educacao Condutiva - Com Amor: the first year, the chapter describes my journey here in Brazil as a newly qualified conductor dealing with the challenges of developing a new project in a foreign country and language. I wrote the chapter in late 2007/early 2008 and had a lot of material, so much happened in the first year. Just over one year later so much more has happened that I could write another chapter!
Just do it! Available from: http://bit.ly/cep-justdoit
Price £7.50 (€10.94) plus postage and packing.
Monday, December 07, 2009
Monday, November 23, 2009
Christmas in Brazil
I have never celebrated a christmas in Brazil, it is the one time of year I get to go home, but I do spend the build-up to christmas here in the heat. The christmas lights are already up in the streets, our classroom is decorated and trees stand in peoples' house, but somehow it just does not feel like christmas is coming. I associate christmas with cold cloudy days, frost and snow, bare trees, people wrapped up in thick coats and scarves, wearing boots.
Today was like most days, clear blue sky, sun shining brightly, the heat at times suffocating. People walked the beach and pavements in shorts and vests, sunglasses protecting their eyes and flip-flops on their feet. Today was hot and it will only get hotter as the weeks pass, come christmas day it will be difficult to leave the cool shade of the house, except for early morning and evening. I can not imagine what it must be like to spend christmas in this heat. I discovered the other day that like us Brits, the traditional food on christmas day is turkey, however it is not served with roast potatoes, vegetables, stuffing, sausages, bread sauce and gravy but instead, rice, beans and farofa (floury side dish), and for pudding ice cream!
Today was like most days, clear blue sky, sun shining brightly, the heat at times suffocating. People walked the beach and pavements in shorts and vests, sunglasses protecting their eyes and flip-flops on their feet. Today was hot and it will only get hotter as the weeks pass, come christmas day it will be difficult to leave the cool shade of the house, except for early morning and evening. I can not imagine what it must be like to spend christmas in this heat. I discovered the other day that like us Brits, the traditional food on christmas day is turkey, however it is not served with roast potatoes, vegetables, stuffing, sausages, bread sauce and gravy but instead, rice, beans and farofa (floury side dish), and for pudding ice cream!
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Christmas is coming
In five weeks time millions of families around the world will be sat round freshly cut pine trees covered in lights, baubles, beads and tinsel, whilst desperately unwrapping the brightly coloured packages that lie beneath it boughs, the smell of roast turkey in the air. The scene is the same in almost all countries round the world but we each have our own traditions, I know my family does.
Christmas is important in my family as it is the only time of year that the whole family is together, mum, dad, my two brothers, my sister and me. Having all left home at 18 and now living in different counties and even countries it can be difficult to get all siblings under my parent's roof. We all look forward to christmas and the few days we get to spend together, all 6 of us. Christmas eve is all about preparation, cutting vegetables, making stuffing, wrapping presents and delivering them to those that live in the neighbouring towns and villages.
Christmas day arrives and I awake hoping to see snow, with no curtains on the windows of my bedroom it doesn't take long to find out if my wish has come true or not. I share a bedroom with my older sister and whoever wakes first wakes the other, we like to spend these first moments of the day together. I am 27, my sister 31 and my brothers 29 and 23 but we still wake to find stockings by our beds. My sister and I open ours together, we always have about 10 presents each and we can usually predict what they are, but that is what we love about it. At the bottom of the stocking we can always find an apple, a tangerine, chocolate coins and 1 real pound coin. Having completed the stockings my sister and I climb out of bed, wrap up warm and head straight outside into the bitter cold, thanking our mum along the way. Ever since I was a little girl there has been dogs in our family and our first priority on christmas day is walking them. The countryside is always still in the early morning, but the quiet is soon disturbed by our three beasts that run and play in the cold frost or wet snow. As we approach the house once again we see mum in the field feeding our two horses, both of them wrapped up against the cold, standing knee deep in fresh, sweet hay.
Back inside and it is all in line for the bathroom and turkey in the oven. As the smell of roast turkey slowly seeps through the house we head to the sitting room to unwrap the presents that lie beneath the lit tree. The tree is put up the week of christmas to avoid the needles dropping before the big day, it reaches the ceiling with ease leaving only just enough space for the fairy which sits on top. The branches are laden with beads and baubles of reds, golds, oranges and yellows, the small discreet lights twinkle on and off. The tree sits in one corner of my parent's living/dining room, but we prefer to open the presents sat round a lit fire, looking out of the floor to ceiling windows over the Eden valley. It is my favorite place and my favorite moment.
Christmas is important in my family as it is the only time of year that the whole family is together, mum, dad, my two brothers, my sister and me. Having all left home at 18 and now living in different counties and even countries it can be difficult to get all siblings under my parent's roof. We all look forward to christmas and the few days we get to spend together, all 6 of us. Christmas eve is all about preparation, cutting vegetables, making stuffing, wrapping presents and delivering them to those that live in the neighbouring towns and villages.
Christmas day arrives and I awake hoping to see snow, with no curtains on the windows of my bedroom it doesn't take long to find out if my wish has come true or not. I share a bedroom with my older sister and whoever wakes first wakes the other, we like to spend these first moments of the day together. I am 27, my sister 31 and my brothers 29 and 23 but we still wake to find stockings by our beds. My sister and I open ours together, we always have about 10 presents each and we can usually predict what they are, but that is what we love about it. At the bottom of the stocking we can always find an apple, a tangerine, chocolate coins and 1 real pound coin. Having completed the stockings my sister and I climb out of bed, wrap up warm and head straight outside into the bitter cold, thanking our mum along the way. Ever since I was a little girl there has been dogs in our family and our first priority on christmas day is walking them. The countryside is always still in the early morning, but the quiet is soon disturbed by our three beasts that run and play in the cold frost or wet snow. As we approach the house once again we see mum in the field feeding our two horses, both of them wrapped up against the cold, standing knee deep in fresh, sweet hay.
Back inside and it is all in line for the bathroom and turkey in the oven. As the smell of roast turkey slowly seeps through the house we head to the sitting room to unwrap the presents that lie beneath the lit tree. The tree is put up the week of christmas to avoid the needles dropping before the big day, it reaches the ceiling with ease leaving only just enough space for the fairy which sits on top. The branches are laden with beads and baubles of reds, golds, oranges and yellows, the small discreet lights twinkle on and off. The tree sits in one corner of my parent's living/dining room, but we prefer to open the presents sat round a lit fire, looking out of the floor to ceiling windows over the Eden valley. It is my favorite place and my favorite moment.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Seasons
I really miss the seasons of Europe, spring, summer, autumn and winter, they are all so different. Spring with its morning dew that hangs to the blades of grass and drips from the trees like rain drops in the early hours. Bunches of bright yellow daffodils clustered closely together, trumpets open and petals swaying in the breeze. Strong tulips standing by their side of the brighest colours. These are followed by bluebells, lavender-blue in colour, bell-shaped flowers that delicately hang in numbers from one stem. The foxgloves stand tall and proud, beautiful purple flowers speckled with white. Many shrubs that stayed green all winter begin to flower, lilacs of many colours with graceful butterflies resting on their numerous flowers. The ground scattered with specks of white, blossom that has fallen from the fruit trees yet to bear their load. Some of the tall trees above still look sparce with the small green buds just beginning to open up, others are already in full bloom, a rich green that we only truly see in spring. The spring air is filled with bleeting as young lambs run around fresh pastures, finding their feet for the first time.
Summer brings a rise in temperature and longer days, daylight until 8 o'clock in the evening or even later. Sunny days spent on the beach, people sat on the sands behind windbreakers, others walking the promenade, children building sand castles or paddling around in rock pools, net in hand searching for crabs. The sea water cool on the skin, even in the middle of summer, music plays from the ice cream van that sits near by. Those in the cities laze in green parks underneath large trees reading books, on blankets sit families enjoying picnics, children kneel by the lake sides throwing small bits of bread to the ducks that glide on the water, others run holding tightly onto coloured kites. In orchards, trees are ladened with fruit so heavy that the branches might break. By late summer the fruit begins to fall to the ground and bruises as it hits the dry earth, bees and wasps swarm around as the fallen fruit rots. Days without rain gives farmers the opportunity to work in the hay fields, cutting, collecting and bundling the long grass, a sweet smell in the air.
Autumn and the wind begins to blow. The leaves still hang on the trees, but what were once green now turn yellow, orange, red or purple. As they drop from the trees they glide towards the still dry earth, here they rest upon other leaves that are already brown. Children run down tree lined streets, knee-high in crisp, dry leaves. The leaves crunch beneath their feet, the children with arms full of leaves playfully throw them at their friends. In playgrounds children stand opposite one another, each holding a piece of string attached to their prized conkers. It is a sport that requires preparation and as children walk home from school they keep their heads down, eyes searching for the green spiky shell that can be removed to reveal the nut. Once home with pockets full the work is not done, the hard brown nut is placed in vinegar or painted with nail varnish in order to harden it, ready for school the next day. By the end of autumn most of the trees are bare and the air cool.
Winter is cold and we all eagerly await snow, no matter what our age. As we wake in the morning and pull back the curtains we marvel at the soft, white, untouched blanket that covers all. The air so cold it takes our breath away is not enough to stop children from pulling on their thick coats and wellies and wading out of their houses, pulling sledges behind them. Down hills they slide, screaming as they go, friends stand on the sidelines throwing snow balls. In the garden of nearly every other house stands a snow man, body of snow, eyes of coal, a carrot nose, twigs for arms and dad's scarf wrapped around its neck. The highlight of winter is christmas. Cold outside but warm inside as the fire roars and the lights sparkle on the freshly cut pine tree, presents sit underneath. Turkey roasts in the oven as families sit and watch films or old favorites that pass each year. The odd board game is played, wine drunk, the queen makes her speech then slowly the heads begin to drop as one by one we drift into sleep. I always hope for snow on christmas day, however it never stays very long and when it melts it leaves behind a dirty slush that ebbs away to show early spring flowers begining to break through. The delicate white snow drops and hardier purple crocuses keep close to the ground, the first sign of colour after a bleak winter.
It is over two years since I last saw spring, summer and autumn in England, I only ever return in winter. Here the seasons all seem to run into one, barbecues burn and the sun shines nearly all year round. Even in the midst of winter it is possible to wake with the sun rise and step onto the beach in a short sleeved t-shirt to be met with a full sun, blue sky and not one single cloud. We are approaching summer here, it is hot. I walk every night on the beach after dark, and walking tonight I could still feel the heat in the air, like that of an English summer day. I could smell rain in the air and then I saw the lightening strike on the horizon, it is going to rain tonight. Living in a place where the sun always shines can get too much and I look forward to making the trip home in five weeks. It is always strange going from the intense heat to the bitter cold and for the first week in England I will suffer as I did last year, but it is worth it.
Summer brings a rise in temperature and longer days, daylight until 8 o'clock in the evening or even later. Sunny days spent on the beach, people sat on the sands behind windbreakers, others walking the promenade, children building sand castles or paddling around in rock pools, net in hand searching for crabs. The sea water cool on the skin, even in the middle of summer, music plays from the ice cream van that sits near by. Those in the cities laze in green parks underneath large trees reading books, on blankets sit families enjoying picnics, children kneel by the lake sides throwing small bits of bread to the ducks that glide on the water, others run holding tightly onto coloured kites. In orchards, trees are ladened with fruit so heavy that the branches might break. By late summer the fruit begins to fall to the ground and bruises as it hits the dry earth, bees and wasps swarm around as the fallen fruit rots. Days without rain gives farmers the opportunity to work in the hay fields, cutting, collecting and bundling the long grass, a sweet smell in the air.
Autumn and the wind begins to blow. The leaves still hang on the trees, but what were once green now turn yellow, orange, red or purple. As they drop from the trees they glide towards the still dry earth, here they rest upon other leaves that are already brown. Children run down tree lined streets, knee-high in crisp, dry leaves. The leaves crunch beneath their feet, the children with arms full of leaves playfully throw them at their friends. In playgrounds children stand opposite one another, each holding a piece of string attached to their prized conkers. It is a sport that requires preparation and as children walk home from school they keep their heads down, eyes searching for the green spiky shell that can be removed to reveal the nut. Once home with pockets full the work is not done, the hard brown nut is placed in vinegar or painted with nail varnish in order to harden it, ready for school the next day. By the end of autumn most of the trees are bare and the air cool.
Winter is cold and we all eagerly await snow, no matter what our age. As we wake in the morning and pull back the curtains we marvel at the soft, white, untouched blanket that covers all. The air so cold it takes our breath away is not enough to stop children from pulling on their thick coats and wellies and wading out of their houses, pulling sledges behind them. Down hills they slide, screaming as they go, friends stand on the sidelines throwing snow balls. In the garden of nearly every other house stands a snow man, body of snow, eyes of coal, a carrot nose, twigs for arms and dad's scarf wrapped around its neck. The highlight of winter is christmas. Cold outside but warm inside as the fire roars and the lights sparkle on the freshly cut pine tree, presents sit underneath. Turkey roasts in the oven as families sit and watch films or old favorites that pass each year. The odd board game is played, wine drunk, the queen makes her speech then slowly the heads begin to drop as one by one we drift into sleep. I always hope for snow on christmas day, however it never stays very long and when it melts it leaves behind a dirty slush that ebbs away to show early spring flowers begining to break through. The delicate white snow drops and hardier purple crocuses keep close to the ground, the first sign of colour after a bleak winter.
It is over two years since I last saw spring, summer and autumn in England, I only ever return in winter. Here the seasons all seem to run into one, barbecues burn and the sun shines nearly all year round. Even in the midst of winter it is possible to wake with the sun rise and step onto the beach in a short sleeved t-shirt to be met with a full sun, blue sky and not one single cloud. We are approaching summer here, it is hot. I walk every night on the beach after dark, and walking tonight I could still feel the heat in the air, like that of an English summer day. I could smell rain in the air and then I saw the lightening strike on the horizon, it is going to rain tonight. Living in a place where the sun always shines can get too much and I look forward to making the trip home in five weeks. It is always strange going from the intense heat to the bitter cold and for the first week in England I will suffer as I did last year, but it is worth it.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Sink or swim?
I did not start this Blog with the intention of writing about my work, I write mostly about Brazil as people always ask "what does Brazil look like?", "what are the poeple like?", "where have you travelled to?" However work is a large part of my life here, it occupies most of my time and my thoughts and is in fact the reason why I am here in Brazil, so it seems only right to write a little about it.
I arrived here as a newly-qualified conductor, to a project that had been operating less than six months. I was, by my own choice, thrown in at the deep end and it was a case of sink or swim. I had so much to learn in my first year, I started working alongside another conductor, but within six months I was on my own, sole conductor of the Project Com Amor, and that is the way it has stayed for the last two years. At university I had many mentors and a large support system of other students and conductors, I was never alone. But I found myself straight out of university and my own boss, not everyones cup of tea, but it worked for me. Along the way I have learned so much about team management, I have a team of professionals all with different experiences and qualifications, each one vital to enable success of the project, each one a friend.
In the short time I have been here I have worked with more than 20 families from all over Brazil, each one compassionate for my work and courageous to trust in a profession about which they know little or nothing. Each parent or child I meet I learn a little more and make changes to both my professional and personal habits. I am I teacher, I teach my students, but all the while I too am learning.
During my time here I have designed furniture, designed room layouts, chose wall colours and fixtures, assessed and re-assessed students and staff, designed and redesigned programs, visited students schools, given lectures and workshops, planned social events for those associated with the project and more. I have done many things in a short time, I had to learn fast and the experiences I have passed will help me in my future plans. Speaking to a fellow conductor friend tonight we make plans to meet for the first time and for me to observe her work. When she asked what I hoped to see and do, I reply that I want to watch and learn, I know I still have so much to learn.
I am pleased to say that I did not sink, I swam and still am swimming, each day with a little more ease.
P.S. Thank you Susie for inspiring me to post on my Blog today, even though it is late and I, like you, am tired.
I arrived here as a newly-qualified conductor, to a project that had been operating less than six months. I was, by my own choice, thrown in at the deep end and it was a case of sink or swim. I had so much to learn in my first year, I started working alongside another conductor, but within six months I was on my own, sole conductor of the Project Com Amor, and that is the way it has stayed for the last two years. At university I had many mentors and a large support system of other students and conductors, I was never alone. But I found myself straight out of university and my own boss, not everyones cup of tea, but it worked for me. Along the way I have learned so much about team management, I have a team of professionals all with different experiences and qualifications, each one vital to enable success of the project, each one a friend.
In the short time I have been here I have worked with more than 20 families from all over Brazil, each one compassionate for my work and courageous to trust in a profession about which they know little or nothing. Each parent or child I meet I learn a little more and make changes to both my professional and personal habits. I am I teacher, I teach my students, but all the while I too am learning.
During my time here I have designed furniture, designed room layouts, chose wall colours and fixtures, assessed and re-assessed students and staff, designed and redesigned programs, visited students schools, given lectures and workshops, planned social events for those associated with the project and more. I have done many things in a short time, I had to learn fast and the experiences I have passed will help me in my future plans. Speaking to a fellow conductor friend tonight we make plans to meet for the first time and for me to observe her work. When she asked what I hoped to see and do, I reply that I want to watch and learn, I know I still have so much to learn.
I am pleased to say that I did not sink, I swam and still am swimming, each day with a little more ease.
P.S. Thank you Susie for inspiring me to post on my Blog today, even though it is late and I, like you, am tired.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Back in Rio
I recently returned to Rio de Janeiro for the third time in just over two years. Each year in october I have been making this trip for a much needed meeting with family. Rio really is a wonderful city, the sun shining, long white sandy beaches filled with bronzed people, the pavements of black and white tiles have the appearence of waves and are walked or ran day and night by those in search of the perfect body. Buildings surround the beaches both old and new, a real mixture of architectural styles. At one end of Rio a large lagoon (Lagoa Rodrigo de Freitas) where people sail, at the other end the Sambodrome, home of Samba music and Carnaval, and in the north the Maracana Stadium, home of Brazilian football. Sticking out in the water and overlooking Botofogo bay is Sugar Loaf Mountain (Pao de Acucar), two giant rocks, the largest being 396 metres tall, both of which are connected by cables that transport cable cars filled with tourists. The city is nestled into hills filled with slums, houses built on top of houses in a very precarious manner, dirt tracks and steep steps the only access. These hills are green forming the urban forest of Rio (Floresta da Tijuca), the largest urban forest in the world, it was replanted by six slaves in 1861 after the original forest was destroyed to make way for coffee plantations. The forest is immense and in the middle of it all, on top of the highest hill, there he stands, head bowed looking down over the city, arms wide open, Christ the Reedemer.
Coming Home
I have made the decision to return to England, actually I made the decision in May but I guess it is only now sinking in that I will be leaving. I will be leaving in July/August of next year, 2010, after spending 3 years here in Brazil. When I first made the decision I was worried I had made a mistake, I enjoy my life here, experiencing a different culture and language, work is such a pleasure and I have learnt so much, I really will be leaving a different person. I thought I had made the wrong decision but now 5 months on I know I have not.
My brother has just been to visit, and him being here once again reminded me how much I miss my family and friends. I spend 11 long months here, if I am lucky I receive 1 or 2 guests a year but it is not possible for everybody to make the trip. I can count on my two hands how many days I have spent with my sister and best friend in the last 2 years. It is time to go home, at least for a while, to spend time with the people who are very important in my life, I have learnt this in my 2 years here.
I have made the right decision, but boarding the plane to Rio to spend some much needed holiday with my brother, I could not help but wonder how I will feel when I board that last plane home.
My brother has just been to visit, and him being here once again reminded me how much I miss my family and friends. I spend 11 long months here, if I am lucky I receive 1 or 2 guests a year but it is not possible for everybody to make the trip. I can count on my two hands how many days I have spent with my sister and best friend in the last 2 years. It is time to go home, at least for a while, to spend time with the people who are very important in my life, I have learnt this in my 2 years here.
I have made the right decision, but boarding the plane to Rio to spend some much needed holiday with my brother, I could not help but wonder how I will feel when I board that last plane home.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Not sad, just lonely
We all have our own limit and I think I have reached mine. It has been 8 long months without stepping foot on English soil and 5 months without any physical contact with family and friends. My companion here in Brazil is my little Brazilian dog, who has been with me almost from day one. He is not a person, just a rather odd, 4-legged ball of fluff, but without a doubt he keeps me sane, he gets me through the year. Preparing for a meeting with my brother in Rio I sent the ball of fluff to the kennels, it was only as I re-entered a rather empty flat that I realised how important my companion is. Without him I am not sad, just lonely.
Connected
It has been a long time since I last put a post on my blog, actually the last time was 9 months ago and I was in England. Since I got back to Brazil in February access to the internet has not been easy, an internet cafe was my only option until now. I finally have internet at home, I am connected once again! It has come at the right time as after 8 months of not being with friends and family the internet is helping me get through the next 3 months till I go home. The internet is important for most, but for those that live far away from the people close to them, it is a necessity.
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Luck and life's many paths
Some people would say that I was fortunate to be living in Brazil, experiencing what I am, and seeing breathtaking sights each day. Some people would say I am lucky and maybe I am, but I am also here because of the decisions I have made in life. These decisions have not always been easy to make, or without me having to give something up, but they were the right decisions and I can say I have no regrets. Some people would say we were given luck, but I believe we make it for ourselves and that our lives do not depend on luck, but the decisions we make and the paths we choose to take.
18 months ago I decided to say goodbye to my friends and family and board a plane, never knowing when I would return for good. I came to Brazil to observe its beauty, live its culture, speak its language and learn something about myself. 18 months on I have achieved all these things and more, and still my journey here continues. I now know I have at least one more year left following this path that I chose to take, and after that who knows where the next path will take me. Whatever happens I know it will not be determined by luck, but by me. We all have choices in life, we just need to be brave enough to take them.
18 months ago I decided to say goodbye to my friends and family and board a plane, never knowing when I would return for good. I came to Brazil to observe its beauty, live its culture, speak its language and learn something about myself. 18 months on I have achieved all these things and more, and still my journey here continues. I now know I have at least one more year left following this path that I chose to take, and after that who knows where the next path will take me. Whatever happens I know it will not be determined by luck, but by me. We all have choices in life, we just need to be brave enough to take them.
Modernity
During one trip I made whilst in the Amazon, our guide talked about modernity, and how it had affected those living in the area. The Amazonian natives had adapted and modernised in the last 25 years, but not to the same scale as the other states/areas in Brazil, and the rest of the world.
Regardless of place of birth, modernity is a part of every person's life, and we all have to adapt to changes within our lives on a daily basis. I live a 'modern' life, I have a mobile phone, a camera, an ipod, a camcorder. I use the Internet to communicate, to educate myself, and buy the things I want. I went to school, then funded myself through university and received a good education. I have a good job, rent a flat, pay the bills, travel afar in my holidays. I have all of this because I was born in a well developed country, grew up in a town with all the necessities, left home, became qualified and am now living a good life. I have a life that is very different to those lives I saw on the River Negro, with their basic accomodation and limited technology.
As I sailed the river for one last time, the boat arrived in Manaus and I left the river behind, entering a modern hotel, where fresh arranged flowers were being placed on the hotel reception desk. People were rushing around talking on mobiles or working frantically on their laptops and I realised that for four days none of these modern commodities had matter to me, and maybe in life less is more. I was in no rush to turn on my mobile phone or check my email, instead I wanted to get straight back on the boat, and sail back from where I had come.
Regardless of place of birth, modernity is a part of every person's life, and we all have to adapt to changes within our lives on a daily basis. I live a 'modern' life, I have a mobile phone, a camera, an ipod, a camcorder. I use the Internet to communicate, to educate myself, and buy the things I want. I went to school, then funded myself through university and received a good education. I have a good job, rent a flat, pay the bills, travel afar in my holidays. I have all of this because I was born in a well developed country, grew up in a town with all the necessities, left home, became qualified and am now living a good life. I have a life that is very different to those lives I saw on the River Negro, with their basic accomodation and limited technology.
As I sailed the river for one last time, the boat arrived in Manaus and I left the river behind, entering a modern hotel, where fresh arranged flowers were being placed on the hotel reception desk. People were rushing around talking on mobiles or working frantically on their laptops and I realised that for four days none of these modern commodities had matter to me, and maybe in life less is more. I was in no rush to turn on my mobile phone or check my email, instead I wanted to get straight back on the boat, and sail back from where I had come.
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